Drew Barrymore is ready to spill the tea on the good and the bad parts of postpartum life without sugarcoating it.

The 50-year-old actress and talk show host replied to fans asking her personal questions, including advice on marriage and kids.

The Drew Barrymore Show host, who is writing a column called “Dear Drew” for Us Weekly, was asked how long it took for her to feel like herself again after having kids?

To which Barrymore replied, “I’m still not myself. And I don’t know if I will ever get back to the carefree, selfish person I was before children. I can never not know this love and concern I have for my two daughters. It’s consuming.”

She added, “I am just trying to embrace the new me. And I do prefer me now. I’m much more capable. Much more trustworthy. Much more admirable than I ever was. That being said, “motherhood” or “otherhood” should be considered perfectly fulfilling roads. And may each one of them lead us to our better selves. I think this takes time, though. Maturity has so much to do with it. Time is the great teacher.”

Barrymore shares two daughters, Olive and Frankie, with her ex-husband, Will Kopelman.